Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Well, I had this epiphany. Why am I waiting to get Asian bangs? The plan last summer was to get them right after graduation. Then I had the fiasco where my meds, stress, and a hair straightener fried my hair. I chopped it off, cried a lot, and started over. But why can't I get Asian bangs yet? So I cut my hair. Just barely.

And we'll see how I feel about it in two weeks. I feel nerdier already:)

Things you probably didn't know about me:)

I prefer to shower in the dark. Weird, I know.
I'm allergic to chocolate. I haven't eaten it since 2007.
My favorite colors are navy blue and gray.
I super bad want Asian bangs, but I'm waiting for my hair to grow out.
I also want to dye my hair black.
Sinclair's "The Jungle" is on my need-to-read list.
I wish I had brown skin like my sisters Millie and Darci.
I like movies/books that make me cry.
"The Star Spangled Banner" makes me tear up.
The thinnest part of my waist is only 22 inches. (Average is about 25+)
When I was younger, my favorite color was I hate it.
I go to Taco Bell just for the Mtn. Dew Baja Blast.
My life was "Mean Girls" between 5th and 8th grade.
I almost tried out for Living Legends, but decided my hair is too short.
Brains over beauty all the way.
My declared major when I applied to BYU was neuroscience.
I could very happily live in Utah, So.Cal., or Texas.
In the past two years, I've lost about 40 lbs due to stress.
I only like brown boys. No really. I'm not as attracted to white guys. (Sorry?)
I have the biggest crush on Dave Ramsey. (He's the exception to the rule.)
Today, I had to ask a random guy outside my apartment to open a jar of jam for me.
I brush with baking soda so my teeth will be whiter.
My favorite debate topic was the justification of PMC's in the US military.
TSwift's new fragrance sample is being mailed to me.
I could never be friends with someone like myself.
Mosiah is my favorite book in the BOM, and Romans from the Bible.
I passed 10 AP tests in high school and got a 34 ACT.
I write things I've already finished on my "to do" lists.
Sharks are my favorite animals.
I wear a watch to make myself look more sophisticated.
I want to be called as a Relief Society teacher.
At work, I listen to Spanish lesson podcasts.
My dream vacation is a European tour. Italy, Greece, Spain, England, France, etc.
I want to go to Rio 2016 SO bad.
Glenn Beck has made me laugh to tears before. Love his show.
I want to have a black pug named Jamal.
I'm super excited for BYU football tomorrow!


Respect to anyone who read all of that. 
Have a happy day:)

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

more happy things :)

I have been on an incredibly long streak of good days. An unheard of amount for me! I feel great. Better than I have for quite some time. It started with "The Slight Edge." The book talks about making simple, consistent decisions to progress.

Here are a few things that are easy to do: wake up twenty minutes early to work out, read from the scriptures every day, skip dessert, take the stairs, pack a lunch, avoid unnecessary purchases, etc. Likewise, it's easy to: sleep in, skip scripture study, eat dessert, take the elevator, buy fast food, and spend money.

If you make the right decision one day, it might not make that big of a difference. If you make the wrong decision instead, again, there's little consequence. However, imagine what it would be like if you made the right decision every day for a year! Ten years! And that, my friends, is the power of THE SLIGHT EDGE. (Yes you may borrow the book if you ask nicely.)

I first read the book early June. Afterwards I stopped drinking soda and started working out regularly. I mess up sometimes, but I've seen some improvement! I also read a little bit out of a success/self-help book every day. I finished "Your Best Life Now" by Joel Osteen and am now reading "The Feeling Good Handbook" by Dr. David Burns. It was specifically written for people suffering from depression and/or anxiety. It is AMAZING. I would recommend it to anyone who wants better control of their negative, self-defeating thoughts.

I think breaking up with Alonso has been good for me too. Yes, I believe that I truly did love him, or at least as much as a 16 year old girl is capable of. He was exactly what I needed when I needed it. He has been a great friend to me, and still is. He was a wonderful high school sweetheart. However, there are things that I need to learn and experience on my own. I've changed so much in the past few weeks alone that I would not have been able to do if I was still dependent on him. Alonso, I am so grateful for your influence in my life. I've said it before and I will forever stand by it: you saved my life. You arrived at a pivotal and hellish time for me. If I had never met you, my life would be drastically different. Thank you.

Along with these things, I've put more effort into scripture study, reading the Ensign, and working through "Daughters in my Kingdom." Being a student at BYU has changed me so much. I love being able to feel the Spirit while on campus and in class. I've been better about keeping a journal and recording the impressions I receive. 

My classes are fantastic. Today I had Accounting 200, which is the class I was most nervous for. There are over 700 students, and that was a little overwhelming. But the professor is hilarious and I feel like the workload will be manageable. I'm excited about the classes I'm taking. They are definitely going to be challenging, but not too much. I have a wonderful schedule in place already!

And all of that was super scattered, but hopefully it explains why I'm feeling the way I'm feelings: It's been a very very long journey, but I am genuinely happy. It was all worth it.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Today was so happy!

College is totally my kind of thing. I had three classes in a row, one right after the other: Writing 150 Honors, Book of Mormon, and Spanish. I was really nervous about being able to handle the homework load, but I feel very capable. Tomorrow I have Political Science 202 and Accounting 200. (And Spanish is every day.) Then on Thursdays I have an Honors Seminar class, which is going to be great! 

I feel like I'm on top of everything without being too far ahead. Like my dear friend Zoe Cooper said, "Don't try to always know what's next and plan plan plan. Yolo Sarah. Keep it cool." What would I do without her?;)

Okay that's all for now:)

- Sarah

PS- No need to worry, I don't normally say "yolo." :)

Sunday, August 26, 2012

I have wonderful roommates!

Hello people, 

Today was great! I spent a lot of time getting to know my roommates. We had a real heart-to-heart first kiss discussion. In girl world, that's almost necessary to establish a good relationship;) First there's Meg, and she's the RA. She is from Hollister, CA, where everyone is "half hick and half gangsta." Amanda is in my room. She's from Orem and is very studious just like me! We both love Jane Austen. Lastly there's Clarissa, who's an art/photography major from Pocatello, ID. She is super outgoing and creative. All of them are so much fun! 

I'm really excited to start classes tomorrow! I'm also extremely nervous. I'll let you know how it goes:)


Thursday, August 23, 2012

One of my favorite personality traits in the entire world is blunt honesty. I love it when people tell me exactly what they're thinking and feeling without beating around the bush. That's why I got along so well with the debate team. Everyone was so straightforward and to the point. I wish guys were like that. It would be much easier if they were clear and direct with me before I let my feelings show and end up embarrassing myself. Please. 

(end rant.)

In other news, today was the first of many things for me! I worked out, did my laundry, and grocery shopped! Of course I've done those things before, but not since moving out. My depression is like a dull, unrelenting pain in the back of my mind, but I'm trying harder than ever to distract myself and overcome my weaknesses. I'm making lots of friends and I feel like I'm becoming stronger and more confident every day. I'm improving a lot. I'm a little nervous for my classes, but I feel like this is a challenge I'm ready to face!

I love you all, especially the ohana.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Things I'm going to miss:

Visiting Louise and her pets Captain Butters (see above:) and Raggs
Listening to talk radio all day every day
Taking naps in Amelia's bed
Watching sports with my Dad
Walking to the swings at Eaglecrest Elementary
Competing in Debate/MUN tournaments
Date dances
My student council family
Spending lunch reading in the school library
Driving through the gully
Going to Walmart 5 times each week with Millie
The home ward
Dad's Thai curry
Stopping in to say "hi" to Honu every other hour

Things I'm excited for:

The admissions (natural selection) process at BYU
The Honors Program
Grocery shopping and doing laundry
Having a calling
Morning workouts before classes
Being a freshman/junior
Attending my dream school
Finding an internship
Being able to walk to church each week
Going on dates (hopefully...)
Frying ACC 200
Having girlfriends for the first time ever!
Planning the 5k Honor Run
Judging debate tournaments and getting free food

I am happy. Love you all:)

Monday, August 20, 2012

My politicrushes. Yes, that means exactly what you think it does.

Ryan, Chaffetz, and Rubio <3 :) If you need further entertainment, check out this hilarious Blaze article that had me crying:

Today was a little less spectacular. Worrying about a friend. Missing my baby sister. Stressing about classes next week. There are plenty of "mountains to climb" ahead, and I hope I'm ready.

Tomorrow will be better!


Sunday, August 19, 2012 all know I'm a shameless Taylor Swift fan. But she has one song that I used to hate. Now after I've grown up (just a little bit), my perception has changed.

I was about fifteen years old when it came out, and I thought I was really mature. When I swore that I was going to marry him, I believed myself. I disliked this song because it characterized fifteen year old girls as dependent and ignorant. Looking back, I was so incredibly vulnerable and weak at that time in my life (even until just recently). My happiness was wholly contingent on another person. She was so right, and I was so wrong.

The reason I've reflected on this is that I've been hurting for a long time...but I've also felt it slowly slipping away this summer. I've felt Christ like love filling the spaces in my heart. I've been healing. Today, while at church, I felt the peace I've been seeking. I was flipping through the hymn book and came across exactly what I needed:

"As testimony fills my heart
It dulls the pain of days.
For one brief moment, Heaven's view
Appears before my gaze."

Despite everything that's happened, I have faith that I will come out on top. That testimony really brings things into perspective. I'm happy today and tomorrow and the next day. Every time I've fallen down, I have always gotten back up. I'm excited about the changes in my life. I'm ready for new experiences!

Aaand I'm watching "Tangled" tonight which always puts me in a happy mood! :)

I love you all.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Today was absolutely wonderful! I'm truly enjoying my Late Summer Honors class. We spent 3 hours discussing Machiavelli's "The Prince." I've read it twice before, and both times I was looking for the negative. This time through, I tried to find legitimate, applicable advice for being a better leader in today's society. It was kind of like reading the Old Testament...As long as I sifted past all the evil, there were many flecks of gold! On top of that, we discussed the possibility of it being a satire. The Medici family, to whom Machiavelli wrote the political treatise, had tortured and exiled him. The outrageous notions in the pamphlet could be a metaphorical slap-to-the-face. Remember Swift's "A Modest Proposal?" I think both cleverly reveal human nature by exaggerating and pointing out flaws. And of course, Machiavelli was a major fan of the Roman Republic, not governments ruled by princes.

After class I read "Mandragola," which was very questionable. Then my family showed up to help me move in to my new apartment!

Yes this was super intimidating!!!

After about 2.5 hours work, I'd say it looks pretty good:) Unfortunately I forgot to buy the approved wall hooks to hang up my magnet board and copy of the Declaration of Independence... :(

That is one good looking desk:)

I brought way too many shoes...I have more stored under my bed -_- What will I do when I buy more?????

See Mommy? I told you I would get the filing cabinet to fit:) How else would I keep everything together?

Anyway, I miss Lehi, my family, Honu Kamehameha (seriously the best pet turtle ever), my oh-so-attractive debate team, Zoe Cooper, student council, and my best friend Jenna Marsden. I love you all so much. Be good.

Friday, August 17, 2012

New life, new blog.

Well people, I figured that it's time I start up a new blog for my new adventures. I wrote in my old blog,, between the middle of sophomore year until the end of senior year. It's definitely time to retire it. 

My summer has been all over the place, to say the least. It began with me starting a job, quitting said job, then signing up last minute for summer classes at the Y. I became a program director for BYU/SA, enrolled in the Honors Program, and earned A's in both my classes! I went to Nashville, Lagoon, the creek, Iosepa, and spent a lot of time on campus and at home. I started an early morning custodial job (yay?) and chopped more of my dead/fried hair off. Alonso and I became boyfriend/girlfriend but decided it wasn't going to work out during college and we don't feel the way we used to. I moved to Provo yesterday and am currently attending Late Summer Honors. By the time my freshman year officially begins in a week, I will have just under 70 completed credits! I'm excited to make some new friends and hopefully be asked on a few dates!

As for today, it kinda went like this:

We'll just leave it at that:)